L☮VE IS OUR WEAP☮N ❤

So, I'm thinking if I should move to  tumblr. But not forgetting all my archives over here. Should I just stay or move over with all the past entries? Hmm. Please comment if you wanna.

Anyway, I've been listening to The beatles lately. Oh yes, their songs are really catchy and I love 'em. Give it a listen, erbody!

Have a peaceful Thursday, aliens!

(I'm sorry but this photo is inverted, my bad aliens.)

Only a couple o' days left to the chai nees noo year! What new clothes have y'all bought? Well, let me just share with you what I've got here. I actually bought this shirt fo' only 3 fuckin' bucks. It was just a brandless plain white shirt originally, but I drew somethin' on it that says "Love is our only weapon" , with a pistol and a few hearts. I personally like it very much, more than my other chrisdrew shirt. Cause' I think it's pretty meaningful. So, if you like it too, then thank you fo' havin' a good taste. But If you find it gross then, go ahead. I'll still be wearin' it anyway! :)

So, let's have a jump in the topic. Today, I watched My Sister's Keeper at home with my boyfriend. And damnit,  the movie was so heartbreaking that we started tearing. Okay, to be more exact, I literally cried. Seriously. I was so into the movie the whole time. And this movie just inspires me. It tells me how precious life is and that we should treasure every single moment we have with our loved ones. Life is short. So I guess, this is somethin' I learned today. And I hope this will remind all of you who are readin' this to cherish.

Alright, bedtime's callin'. Good night erbody!

HAPPY CHAINEEES NOO YEAR MA FRANS !

<3

Class starts at eight tomorrow and I'm still awake, disturbed by many thoughts. My mind is full of many things, things that are frustrating me. You don't know what I'm talking about, but I feel like I'm such a failure. A big failure. I am disappointed. I am disheartened. Something just isn't right. Is it the surrounding, or is it just me?

nxknieifehqifheirwbvrwv!!! Let me vent. Please.

I hate myself for letting all the negativity bring me down. I hate myself for being this fucked up girl. I hate myself because I always tell my boyfriend not to let the bad stuff pull him down, but at the end of the day, I'm not even able to do it myself. I hate myself for being so fucking emotional. I hate everything I do. I just hate all these so much. Urgh

I'm off to have my cigarette. I need some relief. I want a break. I have to smoke the shit outta me.

ps. To that unknown person who gave me a heart, I think I know who you are. Thanks anyway, my friend! It really meant a lot to me. This goes to Azim too <3  G'night.

Thank you for letting me know that I'm the worst person ever.

Thank you for letting me know that I'm almost worthless.

Thank you for letting me know that I'm a nasty girl.

Thank you for letting me know that I'm a lousy person.

Thank you for letting me know that I've failed myself.

Thank you for telling me that all the efforts I put in were useless.

Thank you for telling me that I'm not following what I aim for.

Thank you for throwing me all those hurting words.

Thank you for bringing me into this world and then give me a broken family.

Thank you for everything you've given and taken away from me.

And I'm so sorry, I'm not the best person, the best girl, the best daughter in the world.

I'm sorry I'm horrible.

I'm sorry for being a mad bitch.

I'm sorry I'm not a nice person.

I'm sorry I don't know how to love.

I'm sorry I failed.

Your words just pierced through my heart and you tore me down.

I can't continue typing anymore. The gush of tears from my eyes are blurring my view.

My dearest friends and boyfriend, all of you are the only ones who's been letting me be able to be myself. I really love all of you with all my heart.

ps. if you think i'm worth living or worth every love I deserve, leave a <3 under the comment. It'll mean a lot to me. Thank you.